"Why I wanted to be Angry Today"

As I walked out of the car wash today, I was watching the video of the man shot in NC filmed by his wife that popped in my feed.
I stepped outside and right next to a police officer. I wanted to be angry, I wanted to choose separation for a moment standing next to my husband (who is a young black male). 

I looked at him and we exchanged hellos. I asked how he was doing. He said “tired. I just got off a train from Chicago”. As we conversed I discovered he was.... 

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from Rhode Island, as is Joshua. They connected and briefly conversed about the difference it is here in Los Angeles and a world they both shared once upon a time, and we went on our way.
Every moment we have Dates with Destiny, we are offered the choice to choose our experience. This doesn’t mean we control people, situations, or outcomes; or that we won’t experience heartbreak and grief. But we are able to choose our response, to choose to be the difference or to fall into the way of fear, separation and blame.
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“Nothing is more powerful than an idea whose time has come” ~ Victor Hugo 

I for 1 choose to remember we all come from the same source. Most (and perhaps all) are doing our best on a planet that’s been under a veil of illusion and separation for eons. But maybe, trying our best is not the highest choice we have anymore? Perhaps we are being requested to BE more, to BE our best and greatest self, to BE intentional with each and every thought, word and action. To BE an active expression love, forgiveness, hope and kindness and the living embodiment of unity regardless of what we “see” around us. To shed off the scales of illusion and enter into the Dance of Divinity.
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We cannot create the new by holding onto old lenses, beliefs and approaches. We must instead imagine new places, new interactions and paradigms then actively live them out. Especially when we are most challenged and most desire to lash out in anger and separation. Everything in existence (starting from the Creator) began from imagining what did not yet exist.

We cannot create the new by holding onto old lenses, beliefs and approaches. We must instead imagine new places, new interactions and paradigms then actively live them out. Especially when we are most challenged and most desire to lash out in anger and separation. Everything in existence (starting from the Creator) began from imagining what did not yet exist.

My beautiful family of earth, the time has come for the most radical, forgiving, transcendent family reunion our world has ever seen.

The ultimate return of the Prodigal Son and the celebration to unfold. We return together as one, for we cannot separate the part from the whole .

I have RSVP’d YES to this party. Your invitation has been delivered. The question is, will you join?
I wanted to be angry, I wanted to, I really did, and honestly I could have come up with many justifications giving me “every right to be angry”. But as I chose to stop and observe the moment and my own thoughts, feelings and emotions, I recognized lashing out at another fellow human being would do nothing but contribute to the pain. 

What is done to one of us is done to all. Whether we believe this or not, it does not change this Universal Fact. I am choosing to be the change I wish to see in the world, to be kind when the world is cruel, to be courageous when I want to fall into blame. I recognized the anger I was feeling, was not really anger at all it was a deep grief masquerading as such in an effort to excuse my choice to feed into the drama. 

Perhaps we’ve been having the wrong discussion all along? Perhaps this discussion is not about who or what is right and wrong. But instead asking better questions to open up greater possibility and healing for all, not just some? In my experience and speciality as a Biofeedback Specialist, our perceptions create our realities and and experiences. I have learned, that simply by asking new questions we open up the power of possibility activating a progression of healing and powerful shifts from the inside out.

“If I had an hour to solve a problem and my life depended on the solution, I would spend the first 55 minutes on determining the proper question to ask, for once I knew the proper question, I could solve the problem in less than 5 minutes. Many people are looking for answers and not asking the wiser questions.” -Albert Einstein

We cannot create healing or change by recreating from the old or current realities and structures. We must instead, choose to ask better questions, opening up the power of possibility. We must imagine new places, new interactions, new experiences, a new world for us and our children then actively live them out. This, this is the space that will generate solutions for the issues we seek to heal. 

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What else is possible for us that we’ve never even considered? 

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